Lord, yesterday mom called and said, “I know I told you it was OK to visit, but I’ve been thinking all morning and I think it’s best if you don’t.“ Just because our son returning from deployment walked through Lambert Airport, everyone is afraid. That’s because of the germs on the surfaces that he might have touched. You just never know, everyone says.
So she had to make the hard choice to not see her grandson after he had been gone so long on deployment because of this virus. Everyone is having to make lots of choices, Lord, and I ask you to guide us and give us wisdom as we make those choices.
My mind cannot help but to go where I don’t wanted to go. I wonder if that was my last chance to see my mom who will be 78 in June. She is in the vulnerable age with this Covid19 virus. So we worry about her and her husband. Just a week ago she was nonchalant about it all telling me she’s been to the store and yet still only had less than a weeks' worth of groceries. I was afraid she was not taking this serious enough. Although I think her message was a little prompting from my sister, it was what I probably would’ve done too. I am thankful to You, God, that Mom is now being more serious.
So I sit here Lord and I wonder and try to recall the last time I saw Mom. Christmas. It was Christmas day. I wonder how many in this world are in the same boat where the last time they have seen their loved ones was on Christmas. I wonder how many of us in this world will have already seen our loved one for the last time. I don’t want my mind to go there. I try to chase those thoughts out of my mind. But it could become fact.
So Lord I pray that you take worry off of everyone’s minds. Help us to not worry about those things that have not happened yet. They are out of our control, Lord. They are in your control, Lord. Since there’s nothing I can do, there is no reason I should worry. So chase these thoughts out of my head and the heads of all those that worry and help me to focus on the good that is in my day right now Lord.
March 21, 2020