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It is alright to cry

 

Written 8/27/12 -- Can you identify?

I cried today. Why? Facebook depresses me. It seems to me it is just like high school in where I am still a "nobody" because no one cares enough about the things I post to comment on them. Family is the worst and family is supposed to be the ones who care the most. Instead, they are the ones that judge the most.

This is not the first time, nor the second, I have cried because of the lack of comments on my posts, when I see others having long streams of comments. I know it is not a popularity contest and I know people sometimes miss posts, but when you go months on end and people do not even hit the stupid "like" link, it is hard not to read truth into the facts.

I often feel like I give, and give, and give comments and "likes" showing I care, but these same people never reciprocate. Ever never. Why is it so one-sided?

People are people. People are born self-centered. People are born self-righteous. They live on their own little Facebook wall worlds, all about themselves. If you try to tell them that their lack of commenting on your posts hurts, they cannot see how that would hurt you and feel they have done no wrong.

Not doing something can hurt someone as much as doing something.

People are people. Each person has his or her own secret hurts that they cannot tell anyone. I feel I cannot tell anyone how their lack of caring hurts because then I am judged for complaining or judged as expecting too much from others.

People are people. We act and react the way we do because of fear of judgment. In this case, the best way to react to my hurts is to be silent and just cry. I learned a long time ago it is not a good idea to post online when you feel hurt.

It is not good to hold my feelings inside, but when I exclaim my feelings out loud, I am always judged for them. So instead, it is most healthy to just cry. And pray. And in that silence and prayer, I become stronger.